Do You Feel Guilty When You Sleep In?

Even during this crazy pandemic, when there’s not a whole lot to do while we’re quarantined, I feel guilty when I sleep in. Even in these, the strangest of circumstances, I still feel like a slug when I sleep late.

I write and build e-commerce websites for a living, so it’s not like I have to leave the house to get to an office every morning, even outside of a global pandemic.

But lately even when I hit the hay at midnight (which is early for me, but I’ve always been a night owl) I’m nearly comatose until about 11 am.

That’s eleven hours, people! What kind of red blooded being needs eleven hours of sleep??

I thought that setting the timer on my coffee maker to start the coffee at 9:30 would wake me up earlier, but I STILL didn’t budge until 10:47 am.

But my apartment was full of the aroma of coffee when I finally came to, which was nice.

So last night, I set my alarm (which I don’t normally use…I just can’t stand waking up to that jarring sound) to wake me at 9 am.

I had a dream, in which I was running through my old high school, and the fire bell was ringing.

The entire student body was running through the hallways, holding our ears, trying to get away from the clanging of that damn bell, but it felt like we were running in circles because no one actually left the building.

This went on for what felt like an eternity, then all of a sudden, I found a door. When I pushed the handle to open it, I woke up…to the sound of my stupid alarm!

Feeling drained from running through the halls of my high school all night, I shut it off and went back to sleep.

But as you probably guessed, the catnap lasted about 2 hours. When I woke for the second time, I felt not just guilty for “sleeping in”, but groggy too!

I can’t win.

So I’ve decided that I’m not going to stress about sleeping in. My brain functions better in the wee hours anyway, so I’m going to be keeping ‘vampire hours’.

Right now, it’s 1:15 am. And I’ll probably see 3 am before I actually turn in.

Hopefully, that’ll take care of the guilt that comes from the luxury of not having a care in the world when it comes to time.

We’ll see how it goes.

Peace.

Single mom to 3 grown ups. Growing into my writing career and enjoying the progress. I write mostly about self discovery, self improvement and relationships.

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